Some of you (a select few) may know that I started Weight Watchers on Saturday. This is a big step for me, as I've done Weight Watchers in the past (with huge success - I lost a total of 61 pounds). I was nearly within twenty-five pounds of my goal weight, and looked like this:
I pre-paid for nine weeks. NINE WEEKS. That's a commitment. Over half a semester! It was a great deal - I would have had to pay a $10 joining fee, then $12 a week, but, on this plan, they waived the joining fee and I'm only paying $11/ week (and all at once, not spread out each week).
I'm at home with my parents in Nashville tonight and Mom decided to cook dinner - she had a frozen pasta and veggie mix (7 points on new WW PointsPlus, 4 points on the old Points system - we figured it up, just out of curiosity) and a Green Giant veggie package. I had a cup of pasta and vegetables, and a cup of the vegetable mix - around three servings of vegetables, total. My meal was over half vegetables.
I had a sort of break-through while eating that meal. I was feeling sorry for myself last night, wailing and weeping (literally) over my perceived misfortune at choosing to commit myself to relearning how to live and eat at this point in my life. I went out to Taco Bell and got a beef taco and pintos and cheese just because I could. This is not necessarily a bad thing - It was only a seven point meal, but it was the defiance that I really enjoyed. Hell yeah, I'm gonna eat Taco Bell. Screw you, Weight Watchers!
While eating my meal tonight, I realized that this is LITERALLY the first time since I quit weight Watchers that I've had a meal that was over 50% vegetables, let alone nearing 75%. And, let me tell you, I was full afterwards.
I had lunch today with a prospective caterer at the City Cafe in Nashville. I ate delicious tilapia, mashed potatoes, and a corn cake. After tonight's dinner, I still have 18 points left. 18 points! That's enough for dessert several times over, if I decide I want it. I am super pleased and remembered why I lost sixty pounds on WW back in 2005. Their plan works and, with commitment from me (as with anything in life), I almost never felt like I was denying myself. I hope I'm good enough to remember how good WW has been to me and can leave the "feeling sorry for myself" antics behind.
